Missing you more each day! / Momma I know it has been a while since I've written on your site but I hope you have been listening to me when I talk to you and send you my love. Things have been a little rough around here precious... My grief for you has taken over my heart at times and made it hard for me to find the words I long to say to you. When I found out you were going to be a big sister my heart broke into even more pieces because I thought that it ment that I had to let you go. I know now that isn't true. I could never let you go. You will forever have a piece of my heart that will only belong to you. You will forever be my Missy Prissy, my precious and perfect angel! I still find it hard to to go into your room or put your things away but I know now that by doing so doesn't lessen my love for you, if anything it has made it stronger. It's Christmas time and we have decorated your tree here at home and at your site. We have so many little rememberances of you but I still find myself feeling sad when I think of how precious you would be standing in front of the tree and dancing to PawPaw's dancing Santa or how funny you would be opening up the presents before Christmas morning. I got you a present to put under your tree! I hope you like it... I wish more than anything you were here with us but I know you will be watching over us until we are together again. Please send us your love baby and help keep us safe! Things are so uncertain with your baby Sis. send her special angel kisses** Your big Sis needs you too baby. She is at a time in her life when she has some big choices to make. Help her make the right ones baby! Brother and Grey-Grey are missing you so much. With the holidays and your Birthday coming up they have been thinking of you more and more. We all love you and miss you precious.
Mother's Day / Momma To My Precious (Emalee Rain ) My precious Emalee Rain it is Mother's Day today and my heart is so full of sadness because you are not here with me. I remember our first Mother's Day we drove to Anniston and met MeMe at Outback. You were a perfect little angel even then. You let us get finished with our food and even opened some presents before you demanded that I hold you. Oh how I miss those times when you wanted no one but me. As soon as I would take you in my arms you would start cuddling and you would smile up at me with that adorable smile. I want those times back!!!! I went to visit your site on the way back home. Your flowers still look pretty. As I laid down beside you I saw a tiny lavendar butterfly fluttering all around us. Was that your way of letting me know you were there with me. I sure hope so. It is so hard to carry on without you here where you belong. I miss you so much my life just feels so empty. I'm trying precious to do better I just need to feel you near. I hope you know how much I love you and how much love you brought into my heart. I hope you know how proud I am that I am your mother! I can only pray you are proud of me. I love you forever you will be my Missy Prissy~ MOMMA, Mother's Day 2008
The first day of Spring! / Momma
We decorated your site last weekend. GreyGrey picked out your chocolate bunny and your bunny on a bike. The first moment he saw them he said his baby Emmy would love these. He wanted to send them to heaven.... I hope your like your goodies. There were so many things I saw that I wanted to buy you. It is still so hard somedays to face that you are really gone. I guess I just want so much for you to be here with me. I miss you precious. My heart still aches as if it were yesterday, the emptiness is still so overwhelming, my pain still as great as the day I had to hand you to the paramedic and leave the hospital without you, my anger and confusion still as much as there ever was because I just don't understand how someone so precious and loved could be taken away too soon. I'm trying my angel to pick myself up and continue on this journey. It is hard but I know that Ashtin, Matthew, Greyson, Shane, MeME, and MooMoo need me to be strong. Please help me precious find some peace so that I can be there for others until the day I can be there with you! Until then remember you are my heart, my soul, my life...you are the part of me that is missing. I Love You Emalee Rain!
It's been six months now without you! / Momma
It's been six months now since you left us precious and it hasn't gotten any easier. My heart breaks into a million pieces everyday I wake up and you're not here! Every morning when I wake up and I walk into the living room, I remember how we would start off our day sitting in our spot. You would just lay in my arms looking up at me with that beautiful smile of yours. Now when I sit in our spot I have to close my eyes to see you smile. I miss you so much it hurts. I guess that's how it is when you love someone as much as I love you! You're on my mind and in my heart all the time, day in, day out. Not a day goes by that you're not in my thoughts. I find myself lost without you! You were the piece of me that I had searched for all my life. You are and always will be at the heart of who I am, all that I do, all that I feel, and all that I care about. Knowing you are in heaven and that one day soon I will be able to hold you and give you lots of Momma Love again helps me get through the day! I am saving up so many things to share with you, to teach you, and to experience with you! I may be missing out on your birthdays, holidays, and all the milestone in your life but I promise you my angel, I will make up for lost time when I see you again. I will shower you with kisses, hold you in my arms, and I will never be apart from you again. Although we cannot be together right now, an eternity with you is worth waiting for! I love you Missy Prissy!
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I guess I'll never know!! / Momma
I was sitting out on the deck watching GreyGrey play and in that moment a big yellow butterfly flew in front of me and kept circling around. It never landed but stayed just out of reach! I began to wonder as the wind was gently blowing, was this my Emalee letting me know she is near??? Oh, how I ached to have her with me. Does she watch us carrying on without her? I imagined what we would be doing if she was here. I probably would have her bundled in her new sweater that I had bought her and had her pink crocheted hat on because I always worried about her getting cold. I can see it so clearly, her and I on the deck watching GreyGrey play. She would be laughing at me giving her kisses on her chubby cheeks and she would be holding my face while I talked to her. I wonder if she can see me when I feel so sad? Does she see me crying when I lie in bed? Does she know how much I miss her? How much I love her? How much I need her? I wonder what she is doing while I miss her so. Does she continue growing as she would have here? She probably would have cut her top teeth by now! She would be pulling up and getting into all those toys she wanted of her brothers. Her eyes would be dancing in delight when I would walk into a room!!! Does she still smile at me when I talk to her??? I guess I'll never know, at least not while I am here! Has she called out my name wanting me to hold her? Has she ever cried out for Momma Love like she use to every night around 8? Does she wake up early for our morning snuggle? Does she play with her cell phone we sent with her to Heaven? Is she trying to call me and I just can’t hear? I guess I’ll never know, not as long as I’m here. When the wind blows is that my precious Emalee whispering that she loves me? Is that butterfly I see my little girl wanting me to see how beautiful she is? When I hear the rain outside, is that my baby trying to tell me to cuddle up and so I can feel her near? I guess I’ll never know, not as long as I’m here. How I wish I didn’t have these question! How I wish that she was here!
It's been two long months without you! / Momma My precious Emalee it is two months today you were taken from me! I know that you are in a better place and that God holds you in His arms but I can't help but be sad that you are no longer in mine. I miss you so much it hurts. I had so many hopes and dreams for you and now they are shattered! Tonight would have been your 1st Halloween with us. Last Halloween you were in my tummy when I took your brothers and sis trick or treating. I had started planning last year how we would spend your first Halloween... I wanted so much to be able to dress you up in a beautiful costume and take you house to house. I know that you would have been the most beautiful baby anyone had seen. I bet even in Heaven you are the most beautiful angel. How could you not be with those blue eyes and smile! Oh, how I miss that smile. Just looking at you made my heart burst with happiness and pride. Now all my heart feels is sadness. I feel bad because I did not go trick or treating with your brothers. I just couldn't face seeing all of the babies dressed up. Sissy and I stayed home and handed out candy. I couldn't even go to the door. All I could do was cry everytime a little girl would come to the door. It's just not right! You should be here with us. I wish more than anything I could have saved you. I would have given my life for yours... I would give anything to have you in my arms again, to be able to dress you up and take you trick or treating, have Thanksgiving diner with you eating MooMoo's sweet potatoes, wake up Christmas morning to see what Santa brought you, see you play in the blackeyed peas looking for your dime, see you take a bite out of your 1st Birthday cake, give you sweet chocolate's for Valentines, have your picture taken with the Easter Bunny, watch your eyes light up like the sparklers!!!! I will miss out on all of your first... Baby I am so sorry you are not here with us. I hope you know that you are in my heart and in my thoughts always even though you can not be here in my arms. My love for you is more than I ever thought possible. You are my light that shines bright, my every breath, my waking dreams, you are my PRECIOUS EMALEE! I know you are probably tired from all the fun in Heaven so come with me to my dreams and I will snuggle up close and give you sweet sugar like you like for me to. I'll sing "oh my darlin" and i'll keep you close all night. Rest well little one, Momma loves you forever and ever , way up high, kiss the sky!
to my babysis... / Ashtin (BIG sis ) i've been looking at things on the internet and this pix keeps showing up, so i thought that it must be for some reason... i didn't read it until the 10th time i saw it but when i did it made me think of you... i need you more than ever rite now, so please keep me close and help me find the strength to carry on.... i love you and i miss you sooo much. XoXo always, BIG sis
just saying hey... / Ashtin (BIG sis ) just stopping by to say that i love you sooo BIG!!! i made this for you... hope you like it... it's a pix of you with a lil bit of flare from me... i love you and i'll write back soon... love ya XoXo always, BIG sis
my little rain / Brother
Hey Emalee I am going to kiss, kiss, kiss you every day. I love you so much! I hope you are blowing kisses to me too. I hope you have fun up in the sky. You are my Angel. I know you are watching over me, Momma and the rest of us.
I remember a lot about you. What I remember most about you is your chubby legs and your big happy grin.
I can't forget the color of your blue shining eyes just like your PawPaw's. Now that you are with him you can see that you look just like him. I Love you so much!
It only gets harder!!! / Momma
Being apart from you is even harder than I thought it would be. I try to be logical and tell myself that it won't be forever, but that's not much comfort when what I really need to touch you and kiss you and love you. Sometimes I close my eyes and hold a picture of you in my mind and imagine all the things I'd say if I had you here. But no matter how beautiful the picture is, it will never compare to the real thing, to looking into your eyes and whispering your name and kissing your sweet little lips. I miss you so much, and I can't wait for the day when I can stop holding on to a daydream and start holding you in my arms again! Momma Loves you so much. I would give anything in this world to be holding you again but God has other plans for us right now. You are in His arms and I know He is holding you close until I can be with you again. Take care my sweet Angel. Send me your love and strength so that I can make you proud! I will be keeping you close in my heart. Daddy, Sissy, Brother , and GreyGrey send you their love and Kisses too!!!
My Little Princess / Brother
Even though you are gone you are still blowing kisses to me! Everytime I see a butterfly on the playground I think of you. I saw a big purple butterfly on the tree we planted for you and I knew you were there with me smiling down on me. I LOVE YOU!
Sending you a butterfly kiss! / Momma
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i thought we'd have a lifetime... / Ashtin (BIG sis ) i thought we'd have a lifetime to spend but now you're gone to Heaven... you're my little angel in the sky and every butterfly i see... one Sunday afternoon i was walking outside in our front yard and saw the most beautiful blue and purple butterfly i have ever seen and it made me think of you, that time when we were at the Tennessee Aquarium in the butterfly exhibit and all the butterflies would land on your head and we all would just watch and laugh as they would tickle you and then you'd giggle a little, not knowing what was going on, all you knew was that something was tickleing you and that we were laughing... i miss you more that i can explain in words... i still don't know what to tell mom, or myself for that matter why you had to go, but i know it was for some reason that none of us will ever know and maybe it's just not ment for us to figure out... it's for sure that you didn't die alone because you took a parts of everyone who knew you with you when you left... well i love you babygirl.... love me always, BIG sis fly high my little butterfly ^E^
My little Butterfly / Momma Everytime I see a butterfly I pray it is your way of letting me know you are around me! And though you are out of my grasp I will forever see your beauty. I miss you every second of every day! I love you forever and ever, way up high, kiss the sky!!!
YOUR FAMILY LOVES AND MISSES YOU SWEETIE** / CATHY~MOM OF DAVID GIRAUD~MO &. LM Read >>
YOUR FAMILY LOVES AND MISSES YOU SWEETIE** / CATHY~MOM OF DAVID GIRAUD~MO &. LM
I have missed you so much! / Momma
Baby I am sorry I have not been on your site but I think they finally have it working now. It has been so hard not being able to go on here and write to you. I hope you have been hearing me though. I send you kisses everday and tuck you in every night... It has been so hard with it being summer I often sit and think of you and the summer we had with you before you went to heaven. Those are memories I will cherrish forever. Summer nights at MooMoo's, sweet tea behind my back, all those mornings we would cuddle in MooMoo's den.... It is just not the same without you Missy Prissy. So much has happened since I last wrote. You have a new baby Sister, Annabella. She is 6 mos. old now. She is so tiny though. We worry about her so much. She has so much working against her. I know you are keeping special watch over her.... I tell her about you all the time. Your big Sissy graduated from high school... We are so proud of her but she still needs you to watch over her. She is on her own journey now. Help her to see the right path to take. You Brother is doing great with soccer. He won his 3v3 tournament. He sent you kisses after he scored his goals. He misses you so much baby. I can see his pain but I don't know how to help him. Please send him you angel kisses**** and GreyGrey well he probably more than others talk about you the most. He is so proud of his Angel Sister. He makes sure everyone knows you. He still cries for you at night. We all miss you precious. Not a day goes by that our heart don't ache for you. Not a day goes by that you are not in our thoughts. You are forever a part of us. Send us kisses precious** so we can feel you near! I love you Darlin <3 Close
A pic for you sweetheart / Lori Momma 2. Twins Kinsey &. Kylee (Loving friend )Read >>
A pic for you sweetheart / Lori Momma 2. Twins Kinsey &. Kylee (Loving friend )
Sweet Emalee~ You are such a part of my life, its funny that I havent even got to hug your mommy yet...Im working on that! I wish we lived close so I could stop in and hold your baby sissy and she could take a long hot bath or a much needed nap! Or just to have coffee or sweet tea! I know you are staying close to them and Im so glad~You need to let your momma know your near her! I just wanted to let you know that I love you and think of you so often! Hug your momma for me xoxo
Have your mommy google the website " To write their names in the sand" she will love it, I discovered it from another angel mommy and it has been such a wonderful experience for me! Love you so much xoxoxo
Another site member emailed me your daughters page telling me to READ it. It brought tears instantly. I am so sorry to hear of your loss. I hate saying loss because it wasnt. She was beautiful and like you said it looks like she had so much fun and was so happy. It is so sad that we as mothers have to go through such pain. I believe loosing a child is the worse. No one should ever have to go through this. She was beautiful and it is so great that you keep her memorie alive as you do. I also lost my only daughter on March 28, 2007. I had two sons and was SSOO excited to have a daughter and only god knows why she was not ment to live on this earth. When I was 6 months pregnant I gave birth to her and she was already sent to heaven. So sad. August of 08 I had another son and I wanted so had to have a little girl but it never happened so she will be my only daughter and when I time is right we will meet our little princesses again. So sorry to hear you had to send your daughter to heaven as well as I did. There are no words that can make it right, I know. If you ever wanna talk I will always be willing. It helps me I know to be able to talk about my daughter to peole who know how I feel and who care. Take care and know your little angel is always with you.
Happy Birthday / Lori Sullivan (Loving friend )Read >>
Happy Birthday / Lori Sullivan (Loving friend )
Happy Birthday my sweet lil Emalee, I think of you so often and the difference you and your momma have made in my life. I hope your day is filled with all the love you can handle!! I know so many are sending you all the love they can!! Send hugs n kisses to your momma on this special day, she needs to feel u near her as she remembers the moments that you arrived here. Here are some lil things I found for you on your birthday. I love you Miss Emalee Rain and I love your momma too!! I hope that someday your mommy and I will be able to meet and hug each other so hard!!
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i've been looking at things on the internet and this pix keeps showing up, so i thought that it must be for some reason... i didn't read it until the 10th time i saw it but when i did it made me think of you... i need you more than ever rite now, so please keep me close and help me find the strength to carry on.... i love you and i miss you sooo much. XoXo always, BIG sis
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