You have an angel's face, a loving heart,
A peaceful, sunlit smile that last forever.
You are the whole, of which I am a part,
Not fully me unless we are together.

I know there is a place beyond
the world in which I live
Thoughts of heaven ring like poetry
And, thinking of you now, It's clear to see
Your the glow that shines on, inside of me

Oh, how I remember, the touch
of your little hand so tender,
Feeling like a candle lights one eyes.
For all my life you'll be my heart's true center,
Striding like a sun across my skies.

~to my precious Angel Emalee
You are forever a part of me
Momma February 2008

To Our little Princess
Beautiful and sweet
From your cute little nose
to your chubby little feet
Oh, how we wish
you were here for us to hold
to help you celebrate
You turning one year old!
All dressed up in your in your party dress
and wearing your pretty pearls
your party hat sitting upon
that one adorable curl.
A beautiful vision you must be in heaven
as you celebrate this special day
We wish you could be with us precious
But God wanted it a different way.
Even though we can not be with you
we will be looking up above
as you celebrate with the angels and Jesus
we will be sending you all our LOVE!

Written for my Emalee on her first Birthday by Momma

Miss you bunches

Daddy, Momma, Sissy, Brother, and GreyGrey

Emalee, Brother wanted me to send you this picture.  He prays every night that Jesus is reading books to you like he use to do.  He misses and loves you so much!
"Jesus loves me! This I know,
As He loved so long ago,
Taking children on His knee,
Saying, “Let them come to Me.”

Sometimes I look up into the night sky
at the tiny stars and think about  how far away you are.
It's then that I think I can almost see 
those stars winking....
as if to say they are watching over me Keeping us together in spirit.
And it's also then that a kind of contentment
and peace fill my heart...
Because even though this world is so big,
the stars seem to tell me what I already know 
deep down inside....
OUR LOVE IS BIGGER THAN ANY DISTANCE BETWEEN US COULD EVER BE!
written by Mommy

Being apart from you is harder than I thought it would be. I tell myself that it won't be forever but that is not much comfort when all I really need is to hold you, kiss you, and tell you I love you.  Sometimes I close my eyes and hold a picture of you in my mind and imagine all the things I'd say if you were here.  But no matter how beautiful that picture is, it will never compare to the real thing, to looking into your beautiful blue eyes and having you fall asleep in my arms and hearing you say Momma for the first time. I love you so much I can't wait until the day when I can stop holding on to a daydream and start holding you in my arms again. Until that day precious, know that Momma loves you and that I carry you with me in my heart!~March 07, 2008

Just like a beautiful long-stemmed rose,
Her precious memory grows and grows.
Touching the hearts of all those she loves
And like the fragrance of that same rose,
Her love so sweet, still flows and flows.
Filling our lives with a warmth
That shows she's there.
So like a forever blooming rose,
The beauty she shares eternally grows,
For deep in our hearts, each of us knows...
She lives !!
~ unknown

 

 Thank You, God

Thank you God for all that grows,
Thank you for the sky's rainbows,
Thank you for the stars that shine,
Thank you for these friends of mine,
Thank you for the moon and sun,
Thank you God for all you've done

 

Flutter, Flutter, way up high our little butterfly is dancing in the sky
WE are

Sending you Butterfly kisses***

With every second of every day We miss you more than words can say!

 

Thank you Sarah for your beautiful graphics
Mummy to ~Joshua~

My little Angel who smiles so sweet. My life without you is not complete!

The Loss of a child

 

 

    

The moment that I knew you had died,
My heart split in two,
The one side filled with memories,
The other died with you.

I often lay awake at night,
When the world is fast asleep,
And take a walk down memory lane,
With tears upon my cheek.

Remembering you is easy,
I do it every day,
But missing you is a heartache,
That never goes away.

I hold you tightly within my heart,
And there you will remain,
Life has gone on without you,
But it never will be the same.

For those who still have their children,
Treat them with tender care,
You will never know the emptiness,
As when you turn and they are not there.

 

 
Don't think of her as gone away-
her journey's just begun,

Life holds so many facets-
this earth is only one.

Just think of her as resting
from the sorrows and the tears,
in a place of warmth and comfort
where there are no days and years.

Think how she must be wishing
that we could know today
how nothing but our sadness
can really pass away.

And think of her as living
in the hearts of those she touched...
for nothing loved is ever lost-
and she was loved so much. 

Thank you for the adorable pix of my Emalee!
(Brandy Mommy of Angel Julia Ann Corliss)

Thank You Tammy, Mom to Angel Andrew Cardwell

I love my RAIN!

Thank you Sarah for Ema's tear. I've cried a million since Emalee gained her wings, I think of her smile and I cry a million more!

Sarah, another beautiful pix.! Thank you so much!

I carry you in my heart and in my thoughts always!

There is a special Angel in Heaven
that is a part of me.
It is not where I wanted her
but where God wanted her to be.

She touched the hearts of many
like only an Angel can do.
I would've held her every minute
if the end I only knew.

So I send this special message
to the Heavens up above.
Please take care of my Angel
and send her all my love. 

         

 

Sometimes I wake up at night
and forget you are gone.
Fresh from a dream of you
I imagine I hear you playing in your crib
I sometimes feel your touch is near.
Sometimes I find myself talking to you during the day
imagining all the things left to teach you
all the games we didn't get to play,
songs left unsung, experiences we didn't get to share.
Sometimes I walk into a room
and hope you will magically be there
waiting for me to pick you up
and hold you in my arms.
But only an emptiness is waiting for me
when I realize it was all just a dream.
Sometimes all I have to live for are my DREAMS!
Written to my precious Emalee from Momma

 


         



     







If I could have a lifetime wish,
A dream that would come true,
I'd pray to God with all my heart
for yesterday and you.
A thousand words can't bring you back;
I know because I've tried.
And neither will a million tears,
I know because I've cried.
You left behind a broken heart
And happy memories too.
I never wanted memories,
I only wanted you. 


          




   




We Do Not Need A Special Day

We do not need a special day
To bring you to our minds
The days we do not think of you
Are very hard to find

Each morning when we awake
We know that you are gone
And no one knows the heartache
As we try to carry on

Our hearts still ache with sadness
And secret tears still flow
What it meant to lose you
No one will ever know

Our thoughts are always with you
Your place no one can fill
In life we loved you dearly
In death we love you still

There will always be a heartache
And often a silent tear
But always a precious memory
Of the days when you were here

If tears could build a staircase
And heartaches make a lane
We'd walk the path to Heaven
And bring you home again

We hold you close, within our hearts
And there you will remain
To walk with us throughout our lives
Until we meet again

Our family chain is broken now
And nothing seems the same
But as God calls us one by one
The chain will link again.

I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU MISSY PRISSY.
MeMe







Don't tell me you understand... / Momma

Don't tell me that you understand,
don't tell me that you know.
Don't tell me that I will survive,
How I will surely grow.

Don't tell me this is just a test,
That I am truly blessed.
That I am chosen for the task,
Apart from all the rest.

Don't come at me with answers
That can only come from me,
Don't tell me how my grief will pass,
That I will soon be free.

Don't stand in pious judgment
Of the bonds I must untie,
Don't tell me how to grieve,
Don't tell me when to cry.

Accept me in my ups and downs,
I need someone to share,
Just hold my hand and let me cry,
And say, "My friend, I care 






Although I cannot hold you in my arms
You will be forever held
Deep within my heart.
Although I cannot see you with my eyes,
I will picture you always in my mind,
Of what was, and what could have been.
Know that you are loved,
And that you made a special place
Within my life and I will cherish you always. I love you my precious Emalee Rain ~Momma





There are tiny jars of baby food,
that she will never eat,
And shiny shoes with buckles,
that will never touch her feet.

As the bikes and trikes taunt me,
from high up on the rack,
Tears will break free from my eyes,
if I dare look back.

I run off to the restroom,
to blow my nose and cry.
I wipe my eyes, swallow hard,
and let out a sigh.

I must go face the paper,
college and wide rule,
That my little angel,
will never use in school.

I hurry past the greeting cards,
that the people chose with care,
And I am reminded,
of the holidays we shall not share.

In the checkout line I bow my head,
and heavy is my heart,
For the family right in front of me,
has a newborn in their cart.

Shopping in the local store,
used to be mundane.
Now every aisle's full of items,
which remind me of my pain.

So, quick as I can, I give the cashier,
the money from my purse,
And hurry away from those who don't know my pain,
in this foreignly happy universe. 
I saw this poem on our angel friend Kayls's site and it touched me because it is so true.  




Some people come into our lives and quickly go
Some stay for a while and leave footprints in our hearts and we are never ever the same.
I will never be the same without you.  You will forever have a place in my heart where I will keep our special memories close.  I will cherish them always and Thank God for everyone!
I Love You always Momma!






      
Call heaven there's an Angel
That's coming home today.
Our hearts are sad and broken
Because she couldn't stay.
 
Fluff up the clouds and lay her
Gently in your care.
Place the tiny halo
Softly in her hair. 

Our arms will never hold her again
Our lips will never kiss
The velvet of her cheeks again
We were not prepared for this. 

In our hearts will be a tiny hole
Where always you will be.
Because we loved you so much
Our hearts will always grieve. 




Thank You MawMaw for having this pix. made. It's beautiful!



My Mommy is a Survivor

My mommy is a survivor, or so I heard it said.
But I can hear her crying at night when all the others are in bed.
I watch her lay awake at night and go to hold her hand.
She doesn't know I'm with her to help her understand.
But like the sands on the beach that never wash away...
I watch over my surviving mommy who thinks of me each and everyday.
She wears a smile for others...a smile of disguise.
But through Heaven's door, I do see tears flowing from her eyes.
My mommy tries to cope with death to keep my memory alive.
But anyone who knows her, knows it's her way to survive.
As I watch over my surviving mommy through Heaven's open door...
I try to tell her that the angels protect me forever more.
I know that doesn't help her, or ease the burden she bears.
So, if you have a chance, go visit her and show her that you care.
For no matter what she says or feels,
My mommy has a broken heart that time won't ever heal. 


                   













Our Little Angel

You were our little angel
we loved to hold so close
the softness of
your baby skin
like the petals of a rose
We loved it when
we cuddled you and
held you in our arms
You were our little angel
with sweet angelic charms,
We think back to memories
so precious and so few,
for one day God
had chosen you to be
His little angel too. 


     



Please look at our Angel Friends site. 
Keep them in your prayers along with our Emalee. 
All of our angels are precious
       


http://alexis-goudelock.memory-of.com/
http://kinsey-and-kylee-sullivan.memory-of.com/
http://joshua-blakeway.memory-of.com/
http://ayden-saenz.memory-of.com/
http://vanessa-barnai.memory-of.com/ 
http://kristopher-verge.memory-of.com/
http://journey-marie-howell.memory-of.com/
http://www.kayla-evelyn.memory-of.com/
http://madden-meyer.memory-of.com/ 
http://caseyjamesbaptist.memory-of.com/
http://patrickjayclark.memory-of.com/ 
http://mikayla-laurenson.memory-of.com/
http://daniel-annabeth.memory-of.com/
http://www.sophiagracedillon.memory-of.com/
http://samantha-lancaster.memory-of.com/



May God grant you always
A sunbeam to warm you
A moonbeam to charm you
A sheltering angel so nothing can harm you
"She's the sunsets shadow, She's like Rembrandt's light
She's the history that's made at night
She's my lost companion
She's my dreamin' tree
Together in this brief eternity
Summer days, winter snow
She's all things to behold
She's my Kind of Rain"
T. Mcgraw

Gotta hold on easy as I let you go
Gonna tell you how much I love you
though I think you already know
I remember I thought you looked like an angel
wrapped in pink, so soft and warm
You've had me wrapped around your finger
Since the day you were born.
You beautiful baby from the outsid in
Chase your dreams but always know the road
That'll lead you home again.
Go on take this world
But to me you will always be
My little Girl
T. Mcgraw     

You are my Sunshine
My only Sunshine
You make me happy
When skies are grey.
You never know dear
How much I love you
Please Don't take my Sunshine away!
The other night dear
When I lie sleeping
I deremed I held you
In my arms
But when I woke dear
I was mistaken
And I hung my head and cried!

 

 

I looked toward the clouds today
and for a moment saw your face
and wondered just where you have gone
and a hope it's a better place.

Did you show yourself to me today
to tell me you're alright?
Or was it just a daydream
playing tricks upon my sight?

Then I thought of when you left,
you did not say a word.
We never said good-bye, but
in our hearts, your good-bye was heard.

You have changed our lives forever,
your time here not in vain,
and hope you know we always wanted
to keep you safe from pain.

We will always feel the void inside
because you are not here.
But each new thought you send our way
let's us know you're always near.

So until our journey nears it's end
and we hear the angels sing,
we'll face each new day as it comes
and live off the love you bring.

~ unknown ~

 Go ahead and mention my child,
The one that died, you know.
Don't worry about hurting me further
The depth of my pain doesn't show.

Don't worry about making me cry
I'm already crying inside
Help me heal by releasing
The tears that I try to hide.

I'm hurt when you just keep silent,
Pretending it doesn't exist.
I'd rather you mention my child
Knowing that she has been missed.

You ask me how I'm doing,
I say "pretty good" or "fine"
But healing is something on going
I feel it will take a lifetime.


by Elizabeth Dent

 

I see the moon
The moon sees me
God Bless the Moon
God Bless My Precious Emalee!

Thank you so much Sarah(Momma to ~Joshua Blakeway~) for cheering me up! My Emalee is the rainbow in my life!
It takes both RAIN and Sunshine to make a RAINBOW!

         

I didn't have to look into your eyes
to fall in love with you.
I didn't need to hear your cry
to know you loved me too.
I didn't need to hold your hand
to cherish you for always.
Within my womb, we shared our hearts.
You touched my soul.
You sweetened my spirit.
You gave me memories I'll always hold dear.
Yes, my heartaches since you departed too soon.
But a mother's love does not end with death.
For you are my child.
Forever my love is yours.
-Kathy L. Schmucker 

WE are four but our hearts are one!










You were a blessing to us all
you were a special child.
And we were so glad God sent you
to be with us awhile.

You filled our home with happiness
and made our life complete.
The time we had with you
was far too short, but oh so sweet.

Some things we don't find easy
to accept or understand.
Until we realize they're part
Of our Creator's perfect plan.

Now it comforts us to know
you're with the angels up above.
While in our hearts we hold you close
surrounded by our love.

To My Rain from Brother
I love you always

 

The Rain


This is a Thomas Kinkade painting It's rumored to carry a miracle!
He must have been thinking of my Emalee Rain when he painted this because she was truly a miracle to all that know and love her! 

 

  

 

 

Thank You Erica (Mommy to Angel Ayden) for the beautiful picture of Emalee!

Butterflies

The symbol of new life and rebirth are fluttering all around me. They circle my head, land on my arms and dance around my feet. I've never seen so many butterflies... never seen so many kinds... Delicate wings... colors like the sky and grass and earth. Their flight is a motion of freedom and calmness and is so beautiful to see. Please let death be a butterfly with our loved ones soaring in an existence that is too wonderful for us to comprehend.

 

Emalee, thoughts of you make our hearts flutter!

 

I would like to thank a group of people who have helped
me find a strength I never knew I had. Their love and prayers have helped me through a very emotional time. Without them I could not make it through this journey. Sarah Blakeway,
Sherry Morrow, Bonnie Stowe (MawMaw),Chrissie Baptist, and Lori Sullivan,
not only do they send me beautiful graphics for Emalee's site but they have given me their friendship.
To each of you, Thank you from the botton of my heart.
Please lite a candle before you leave. Help keep Emalee's memory alive by keeping her in your thoughts and prayers. God Bless!
                Thank you Tammy, Mom to ~*~Andrew Cardwell this is so beautiful